Mothers Intuition

Have you ever had an instinct? An instinct that begins as a gnawing...Then grows into a raging burn; a burning instinct that something is wrong...

Your baby continues to get sick from the very foods he is supposed to thrive on. I did. I am a mom of a little boy just diagnosed with FPIES.

And that burning feeling now? Extinguished. My instincts? Stronger than ever. Guiding me, with my faith, as we navigate through the murky waters of our new world created by something called FPIES.

"Faith is not about everything turning out OK; Faith is about being OK no matter how things turn out."

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

A Blenderized Diet for Tube Feeding

Little Man has a G-tube.  This tube was surgically placed in his stomach in March of 2012, by the fall of 2012, we were beginning to use it for his blenderized feedings...."feeds" as we call them.  His safe foods get blenderized with a commercial grade blender and this is his 'diet' - his 'safe' diet.  This is what assures he thrives.   A blenderized diet has become a necessity for him due to his multiple allergic 'triggers', his corn 'trigger' being the most detrimental to his ability to tolerate pre-made, complete nutrition, formulas.  His FPIES triggers from minuscule amounts of his allergen - from contamination to trace ingredients, to hydrolyzed proteins.  All result (for him) in severe inflammation, and often villi damage, in his intestines causing malabsoprtion of nutrients.  A bit counterproductive to achieving optimal nutrition for growth.  A blenderized diet of his 'safe' foods- foods that his body accepts as nutrition instead of perceiving as an invader (as the body is capable of doing with this allergic syndrome called FPIES).

I wanted to take this week of honoring Feeding Tube Awareness Week, to provide a peek into what his blenderized diet looks like.

It starts here, well- it starts at the store or from our farmer supplier but here is where his daily diet starts.  A freezer full of foods ready to be prepared for his 'feeds' (or 'blends').   This is mostly peaches.  Processed and purred to be ready to be defrosted and then added to his daily feed. Peaches are a safe food for him but not shelf stable, canned, jarred or other prepacked frozen peaches.  All of those peaches have additives, additives that cause Little Man to have symptoms.  So, we get the safest source- fresh from Georgia in early summer.

 The top of the freezer is some foods we have purchased, and have planned 'trials' for.  There is also some papaya in there- that has been off and on "safe".   Papaya itself is safe but papaya (among other tropical fruits) are frequently 'gassed' to help in their growing and that 'gassing' is where corn is introduced and we have seen symptoms that disrupt his quality of life from even this seemingly small amount of corn, so we have to limit how much we give him and ration it when we feel his body can handle these symptoms -- he tolerates papaya itself and it provides Vit.C so we find ourselves bargaining with FPIES this way some times.  But that is another post, for another day.   Today, we're talking about his blenderized diet for his tube feeding.

On the bottom of the freezer is his safe pork- ready to be roasted in the crock pot (as pictured to the left). We purchase a half a hog at a time, and have the butcher process it into varying size of bone-in roasts.  I leave the bone in for the roasting time and I give it a long roasting time to help some of the components of the marrow to leach into the broth that I use for the liquid of the blend. These nutrients provided in the bone/marrow are providing Little Man with some essential nutrients he can't otherwise get (doesn't have enough safe foods).
Looks yummy huh?  His brothers tease that it looks like a chocolate milkshake! Not quite....

There are several reasons for a blenderized diet, it has several advantages and a few disadvantages and may not suit everyone.  It is perfect for our Little Man, and it is what is keeping him thriving. We are grateful for his tube to provide his much needed nutrition this way.  I am daily reminded of this and, during Feeding Tube Awareness Week, I honor this means of providing optimal nutrition to keep this little boy allergic to so many foods, thriving.





Sunday, February 9, 2014

Tube Feeding Awareness Week 2014: Nothing Can Hold Us Back


Little Man has had the assistance of tube feedings (parental and enteral) for his optimal nutrition for almost 3 years now.  He originally had 5 weeks of TPN in December of 2010; which restored his damaged villi from a soy trial (that was not safe). He did well for months but then a bad reaction that set off a spiral that set him back and, in the summer of 2011,TPN became necessary once again.  

Little Man has villi damage with many of his reaction flares and without the complete nutrition of a safe and tolerated formula, his body was not able to recuperate from multiple "smaller", and sometimes more chronic reactions following the acute reactions.  He remained on TPN from August 2011 – February of 2012 when we decided he was ready to challenge his gut again, and he received an NG Tube to trial his 6th formula, a corn syrup free formula, Alimentum RTF.    In March of 2012, he had his G tube placed.  It was in the weeks following the G-tube placement that his body made it clear that it was not able to accept the Alimentum RTF as nutrition, much like so many other formula’s and foods before.    It was then that we proceeded with the blenderized diet that he is on now.  One of our comforts when the decision to place the G-tube was being made was that we could blenderize safe foods.  With his strong oral aversions and the growing nutritional needs of a growing boy, he was not able to eat enough of his safe foods daily to maintain at ‘baseline’ much less when recovering from a reaction when his body needed that nutrition the most but when he ate even less.  There were several factors that went into that decision to place the G-tube – the most important factor of course was for optimal nutrition to grow and thrive.  The G-tube has made such a significant difference in our ability to move past surviving to thriving as a family and most importantly, to his quality of life and thriving through this allergic syndrome.  

This year’s theme for Feeding Tube Awareness Week is “Nothing can hold us back”.  So, I wanted to take a look back at just how far we have come.  Come, take a stroll with me (I can't believe it has been almost 3 years!):   

In 2012, Feeding Tube Awareness was hosting its 2nd ever Feeding Tube Awareness Week.  We were fairly new to Tube feeding ourselves, being on TPN.  I had just written this post: TPN.  Look, Oley Foundation even commented on it- they are this year’s official partner organization with Feeding Tube Awareness for Feeding Tube Awareness week!  I hadn't heard of them before that, but have learned a lot about them since and they are an excellent resource for “Help Along the Way”  (Help Along the Way is their most recently launched program, how fitting for the tools and resources they provide)!   

For Feeding Tube Awareness Week 2012, I had just written about where we were at with our "Super Tubie" status and how we were in the depths of making some decisions about his continued nutritional needs.  That very week, Little Man was hospitalized due to a shock reaction (at home we didn’t know if the reaction was sepsis because of his line or an FPIES reaction, so in to the ER we went); thankfully it was not sepsis in his central line for TPN but this 2nd scare of sepsis (having had it once already) was enough for us/his GI doctor to push for the ‘gut challenge” and do some food trials to see how his gut could respond and recuperate on its own- without TPN.   We were grateful for what TPN had given us, had given him but we knew we needed to keep his gut active and now was the time.  He got his NG tube placed the following week and the G-tube a month later.   Little man continues to process and cope in his own ways.  Seeing challenges through the eyes of a child can put things into perspectives, read about how Little Man views his tube: For when I am weak I am strong

For Feeding Tube Awareness Week 2013, I wrote a story for Complex Child EMagazine sharing how Little Man was “Overcoming the Small Percentiles” and then made this video to honor FTA week and how far Little Man had come – from TPN to NGT to G-tubes to keep him thriving and growing.  




This video I made last year is Little Mans’ “nothing can hold us back” story.  

The feeding tubes he has had served their function to save his life.  I am always and forever grateful to those that pioneered the field of TPN; because at a time when Little Man was simply too ill to tolerate anything but nutrition that directly fed his brain and nourished his cells, a time when his little body had been pushed so hard, pushed to the edge, repeated reactions and stress to his body without the nutrition and medications to help him heal and necessitated this form of nutrition.   I am appreciative to the moms that started Feeding Tube Awareness Foundation, even as a nutrition professional who knew the ‘other side’ (nutritional) of Feeding tubes, nothing could prepare me for that being my child needing one.  Feeding Tube Awareness Foundation is there, to help normalize this medical necessity, to help you feel not so alone, to know there is a place where other parents share experiences that may be able to help you when no one else understands what you are dealing with. 


Today, Little Man’s G-tube provides him over 50% of his nutrition – via a blenderized diet of most of his safe foods, given in bolus feeds throughout the day.  This keeps his nutrition optimized for his growth and quality of life.  The tube also serves to keep him hydrated following a reaction, and keep his blood sugar stable during a reaction, as well as medication as needed from the pain of a reaction.  It keeps food positive, as he is able to eat his safe foods as he desires, while he works on his aversions.  It has helped his quality of life so that “nothing can hold us back”.    This week, I plan to provide a few additional glimpes into what Tube Feeding looks like for Little Man, so come on back! 

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Little Man's "Faces of FPIES Spotlight" visit with Hope for Wyatt

When I first started blogging, among the reasons to do so was to share Little Man's story with others - to keep friends and family updated but also to help other families know some of the experiences we have had.  This blog, although I have written nearly 400 posts in 3.5years, is a mere fraction of what Little Man's FPIES is and looks like from day to day; and that is only a mere fraction of who HE is.  FPIES is a diagnosis, not a definition.

I wish I could share more, I wish I had more time to share more because I have always taken my time with my posts -- being very careful about what I put "out there".   There is so much to Little Man's story that would be scary to read if you didn't know his whole story, so my blogging has lagged behind.   Some would say (have said) that my posts here, sharing Little Man's experiences, are 'scary' in and of themselves, just for being what they are.   I wonder if those people think of what they are saying?   That a little boys life is scary? A sweet little boy only wanting what any other 2, 3, 4 year old boy would want from life -- to be happy, safe and loved.  I never intended telling his story would be 'scary' because his life isn't scary.   FPIES itself can be scary, not knowing how to help your child through the pain, symptoms and vomiting of the FPIES being "triggered", not knowing how to properly read a food label, or how to completely exposures of the 'trigger' food, not having adequate medical help when your child is sick,....these can be what is scary about FPIES.  But, they don't have to be.   One can learn how to read a food label, how to avoid a food trigger, how to avoid cross contamination triggered symptoms and reactions, how to advocate for your child with their medical team -- your partners in the care of your child.   Our son's experiences and life are not scary, FPIES can be scary but it doesn't need to be.   Empower yourself, help empower others, share what you learn, advocate -- help your family, friends and doctors learn about what FPIES looks like in your child and how to help keep them healthy and thriving in their individual environment.  Get help and support and know you are not alone.

I am not alone in our blogging, there are now several dozen blogs dedicated to FPIES from other families on this journey, sharing what they are learning, what FPIES looks like in their child, how it affects them and their family.  A friend I have 'met' on this journey, who recently started to journal her families journey with Food Protein-Induced Enterocolitis Syndrome on a blog, "Hope for Wyatt", asked me if I could share Little Man's story for a "Faces of FPIES Spotlight" she is doing on her blog.  Hop on over and read what we shared on "Meet Samuel", and "meet" Wyatt and his family while you're there.


Sunday, December 1, 2013

FPIES Registry!!

The FPIES Foundation announces the first of it's kind FPIES Patient Registry!  This is an exciting step for the families of children living with (and outgrown of) Food Protein Induced Enterocolitis Syndrome!!  A patient registry that provides a voice to patients in a rare diagnosis is so important, a diagnosis that still has research windows open with treatment and management protocols still being developed.  The exact mechanisms of FPIES is yet to be fully understood....and in the meantime, the number of those diagnosed is multiplying rapidly.   This is a critical time for the voice of the patients to be connected -- for doctors providing care today, for studies of FPIES, for additional, new and varied research for tomorrow, for families to be connected, for FPIES to be 'on the map' in this new way.

Please add your voice, your child's voice to this registry.  

Saturday, November 9, 2013

FPIES: The Hidden Scourge of GI Food Allergies. Today's Dietitian Article

I am honored to have been able to provide an interview for this national magazine, bringing further recognition and awareness to this allergy and the vital role a nutrition professional plays on the medical team of a child living with FPIES.  


Food Protein–Induced Enterocolitis Syndrome — The Hidden Scourge of GI Food Allergies By Judith C. Thalheimer, RD, LDN  (Today’s Dietitian Vol. 15 No. 11 P. 12).  


Be sure to check it out! 

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Advocacy

“I always thought someone should do something about that, then I realized I was someone.” ~ Lily Tomlin

FPIES and Advocacy are words that seem to go hand in hand.  Many times, for me, the word "over-advocate" has come to mind; but that is another story for another day.   Today, the story is on Advocacy in complex diagnosis.   Complex Child E-Magazine put a call out for parents who have advocacy stories to share them for their September edition, highlighting Advocacy.  As I mentioned above- I have a few on how I've had to advocate, and too many times, over-advocate for Little Man's needs (medical, physical, psychological, etc). All of these the inspiration to the one that I felt compelled to tell...the story of the beginning of The FPIES Foundation.  I wanted to help others feel empowered with the education and support they needed and to advocate where needed- for their children, for the diagnosis, for children that may follow in the spectrum of this diagnosis. No one should travel this journey alone.  A Foundation was needed, a Foundation I, along with 8 other moms and a community of families, created.  We created it to help families advocate for their little ones and their families within the challenging situations that a rare and little understood diagnosis of FPIES was, and remains yet.  A Foundation whose mission is woven into every ounce of our work, dedicated to offering tools for education, support and advocacy to empower families and the medical community.

You are invited to read more about the beginning of The Foundation for FPIES in the September edition of Complex Child: FPIES, The Formation of a Foundation.

Sunday, July 21, 2013

Corn Allergy

Little man has multiple FPIES triggers (the food protein that triggers a reaction/symptoms); however corn is his worst and it is the most difficult to avoid.   Corn is in so many things.

I often get questions on where to start, or what to avoid.   So, I wanted to have a specific reference list for places that are my 'go-to' for corn sourcing, I added a Corn Allergy page (see tab above or link here): http://fpiesmudpies.blogspot.com/p/corn-allergy.html